Friday, October 28, 2005

Time & Punishment

It was half past twelve when I finally heard the door creak open. Weary of waiting, I’d retired to the couch with the hope that closing my eyes would keep me from endlessly watching the clock. Needless to say, it did not. The bright green numbers slowly and reluctantly increased at a measured pace and in my heart, a seed of doubt as to whether or not M would make it before the night was over began to grow. Before the door was fully opened and before he was completely in view, I sprung up to my knees, feeling so overwhelmed that I couldn’t find it in myself to stand. “I’m not in jail anymore,” M said in an excited tone, as though he needed to reassure himself of that fact. “I know,” I said, so overjoyed that I could barely speak. “Come over here!” I called out. And he did.

I don’t remember what ultimately caused us to break away from the embrace. Needless to say, it was quite a while before we did. As my heart filled up with an equal measure of regret and relief, being in his arms again felt so new and so familiar at the same time that I didn’t know how to let go. Suddenly, in a few quick moments that seemed to come so soon after such a prolonged absence, the world was once again as it should be.

Except that M had clearly lost a lot of weight, further justifying the nickname I once gave him when I called him “my little skeleton,” in spite of his 6’5” frame. I told him that although he did not retain his jumpsuit he’d done well to find something to be for Halloween (and life, for the time being)- he had more than lived up to his name. I suppose he’d missed me too much to be at all perturbed by that comment and I did well to supply him with some much needed nourishment as soon as we got past our initial greeting. His approach to the bowl of food I set before him was nearly as pronounced as his affection towards me and I sat quietly reading the letter he had scrawled so beautifully (though not neatly) on the back of some crumpled prison form.

“They clearly don’t understand how much I love you. If they did they’d realize this is cruel and unusual punishment,” I read aloud. The punishment we both endured had seemed so cruel, but we had faithfully served our time and now... we had all the time in the world to set things right. And after all that time and punishment, we were so thankful, we were so much stronger; it was so worth it.

15 comments:

lisa said...

what a beautiful/glorious homecoming!

Kc said...

We're so thankful (Corry and I) you're both past this ordeal. We will continue to pray for some resolution to the problems surrounding M's little one.

Your gift for writing is great and I look forward to reading as you share some more of these happier times. ;-)

green said...

Congrats on a great and well earned reunion. Let the good times roll...

Sycorax said...

HEY... what are you doing spending time at the computer?!?!?! SPEND LOADS OF TIME WITH 'M' DAMNIT!

CONGRATS! ;)

Sycorax said...

PS... Going to link you up... ;)

Nunzia said...

haha... i posted before i left work... believe me, i AM. i'll link ya too :)

The Conservative UAW Guy said...

Your happiness makes me happy! :)

martie said...

Sweetie, I am sooo happy that this is all behind you and M now. Let's hope that his ex will resolve her issues and his little one will be safe and secure and grow close to M and you.

I wish you both the best of luck and remember to keep HIM in the center of your lifes and HE will get you through anything. God Bless you both!

Candace said...

I came over via Sycorax - as a single parent I can appreciate what you are going through, although I'm the custodial parent. You can't do much about M's ex, but you can do something for both of you that will help figure out where you are in the divorce maze and how to best help his child. Go out and get the book "Mom's House, Dad's House" - it's all about making divorce easier on the child, and has excellent suggestions for getting past egos to what will work for the child. I would also argue that, if next time M is in court he can demonstrate that he has done some research and has some solid suggestions, it will go a long way in the judge's view.

If his ex- can't get past their past to see to the needs of the child, he needs to.

Good luck & God bless.

ABFreedom said...

Congrats, and best of luck in a great future...

Fantastic blog and writting by the way..

Kristi said...

Yea!!! I'm so happy for you guys. Don't forget how much you still need God even when times are good. I know that you know that, but just wanted to remind ya'! Have fun!

princess said...

"The responsibility of tolerance lies with those who have the wider vision"
~George Eliot

You both can make this work, get some good books, and get a plan and some good ideas...and God bless you all in your quest for a loving family!
~princess out

Crazy Politico said...

Glad he's out, and hope he and ex can get something worked out for the kids sake.

bezbabe said...

oh, i'm so glad he's home now!
congratulations, you two!

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