Tuesday, November 01, 2005

BLESSED

“I keep asking myself why all of this happened,” the letter read, “but you see… I already know the answer. God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.”

When M and I first met, that song was in my head constantly. We’d walk around together singing it everyday as though we were rehearsing for some upcoming performance. Never though, did I realize how true the words in the song would eventually become for us.

“Every long lost dream led me to where you are…”

I met M in the depths of a debilitating illness. My life had hit rock bottom. I had stopped praying, no longer trusting God’s faithfulness. I had no hope for the future. Suddenly, all the verses that I’d so often focused on about the promises “not for destruction, but for a future and a hope” seemed to return void. At a time in my life where it seemed that all was irrevocably lost, I found M.

“I think about the years I spent just passing through. I’d like to have the time I lost and give it back to you. But you just smile and take my hand - You’ve been there you understand - It’s all part of a grander plan that is coming true…”

M was in a similar situation. He had lost his visitation rights to his daughter and a great deal of his hope for the future. Having reached a similar conclusion about his life that I had, he too was ready to give up. In two separate devastating turns of events in both of our lives, our paths were made to cross. And together, we not only found the hope we had lost in God, but the desire we had lost in life.

“Others who broke my heart, they were like Northern stars, pointing me on my way into your loving arms…”

In a few short months, my life changed so drastically. It was as if I’d been reborn. Suddenly, everything in my past that had brought me pain seemed so worthwhile because it had brought me to this point. That was the same realization that M came to while he was in jail. “Everything I’ve done caused me to meet you, so I am grateful for all of it,” he wrote. I never thought I’d feel that way, but God proved so faithful to us both, and even as we were so faithless and doubtful, he blessed us so immensely.

“This much I know is true… that God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.”

For where we’ve been and what we’ve been through, I am that much more grateful to be where I stand. I am blessed.

22 comments:

Lisa said...

i feel the same way about my mister :)

Kc said...

I pray you will both find your selves constantly in the center of His will for you lives. ;-)

Just Some Gal said...

Oh Nan...

How beautiful. I just read the post about his homecoming and I am in tears. You are such a beautiful girl on the inside and out.

I was told once that "you are only as strong as your prayer life"...

You my dear, are incredibly strong.

(((many hugs & and a few happy jumps)))

~Deb said...

Sometimes, when we are at our lowest points, we either drift apart from God, or we get that much closer to Him ... I have experienced both ends of the spectrum.

I'm glad that you are where God wants you to be.

:)

Kristi said...

I love that song too! The first time I heard it, I was driving down to Panama City to be in a wedding, and it came on the radio just before I drove out of range of the station. It was beautiful. I cried and cried. My road is still somewhat broken, and I look for the day when I can see exactly who God is leading me toward. I'm glad you two found each other. Yes, God is faithful!

green said...

It's nice to read such a wonderful story. Thanks for sharing it with us. I'm so glad you are back together with M, and very happy.

All the best.

cybeRanger said...

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http://cyberanger.blogspot.com

princess said...

That is by far one of the best songs on the planet! :)
You know, I used to have a franklin, actually i still have it, just not the current year...maybe that is something to bring back for 2006...I think i could use an assistant, too..lol
thanks for sharing and making me remember things that worked in the past!
hugs,
princess

martie said...

Nunzia, you and M are going to be "OKAY"....I can just feel it down in my heart.

Follow the plan that GOD has for you both and you can't go wrong!

Hugs and happiness to you both!

Damian said...

Keep being positive and hold on to what is always true, God. I hope and pray that things will continue to look up for both of you.

Sycorax said...

Damn Nunzia... you are such a good writer. I can't help but be moved by anything that you put down. The two of you are so lucky to have found each other. I could say "Enjoy life for all that it has to offer"... But you have found that part in M already.

dawnne said...

Everything left in His Hands works out beautifully coz He only wants the best for us! I'm happy for the both of you!

:)
dawnne

crossblade said...

I'm happy for you Nuzia,
God is blessing you
I'm praying for both M and you
love and prayers
thomas

green said...

Hope all continues to go well for you and M.

"I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."
Philippians 4:13

BTW, thanks for the link!!

risen_soul said...

Romans 8:28

bezbabe said...

i love that song so much! i don't even like rascall flatts (please tell me i have the right group...lol!) but that song--ooh, it just reaches deep inside...love it and it is so perfect for this!

glad you're still going strong, girlie!

cybeRanger said...

Thanks for the link. It should be cybeRanger instead of CyberAnger.

By the way, I have updated my blog with the link to your blog too.

elmo said...

my path was somewhat similar to yours...having lost my faith in God and being in the depths of my lows, i was thankful that God still loves me n provided me a link to my man. this is how much it proves that God does not want us to lose hope...ever!
May the two of u be blessed with happiness and love till the end of time!
*muacks*

Jeremy said...

Very poignant ... Your words belie what a wonderful writer that you are ... I am thankful to have chanced upon your blog. Thank you for your moving musings on life.

green said...

Nunzia

M is such a lucky man. I hope he knows that. Not only is your faith in God a beautiful thing, but you are too. Love your new profile pic. All the best for you both!!

crossblade said...

finally...I updated...
hope you are doing fine Nuzia
prayers
thomas

Corry said...

Kc and I noticed your new pic and it was like "Peek-a-boo". In the previous pic it was a little difficult to see your face and here she is. Girl, why did you have to hide such a pretty face before?:-)

God's Grace.