Monday, March 06, 2006

God at Work (My Exciting News!)

After being sick all week and being sent home from work Friday morning, I was feeling down. As I pulled the blanket up to my neck and laid down my heavy head, I focused on the coming days and thought of how wonderful it would be to spend time with M and his daughter, who he was scheduled to have for the weekend. My mind went back to the conversation we’d had the night before.

I’d asked him if he thought it was God’s will for us to be together and whether or not it could be considering he and his ex divorced. I told him that I loved him enough to want what’s best for him and that if there was any way he could make his family work again, I’d step aside and be happy for him and V. (Scary, but I really meant it.) M assured me that he’d tried everything he could and that I was his family now. I got online and started blogging about it, hoping to get some feedback on Christian remarriage. I hit the publish button and refreshed the page when the phone rang. It was M.

His voice was raw and I could tell he was distressed before he even finished the sentence. The sound confirmed for me what I’d feared all day. He wasn’t getting V. His ex decided to go against the court order and had called everyone in his family to let them know that M wasn’t getting his daughter. M had only one option – to go there with the sheriff and have her given to him – something he did not want his daughter to have to go through. He seemed resigned to the idea that there was nothing he could do to fix the situation. Considering everything he’d been through this past year – and all the underhanded things his ex did to keep his child from him, I felt really proud of him. I went back and deleted my entry.

The weekend wasn’t long enough, but it was quiet. We both moped around all day, talking about what V would be doing if she was there. This morning, I came into work with a headache, feeling a little defeated and down. M and I talked a little more about setting a date for the wedding and I went into work feeling calm but wishing I was someplace else. When I got to my desk there was a red light on the phone – a message that had been left on Friday morning, after I was sent home. It was the Dean of Admissions from the law school. I’d been accepted!

Had I been in on Friday, I would have known then. While I was home sick, God was at work.

In an instant, my day was transformed. From the depths of my doubt, I was completely thrown. I was overjoyed. Just when it seemed that God had forgotten and the future was uncertain, He was more than faithful. (I am so blessed.)

This should make planning our wedding a little harder, but at least now we’ll have a schedule to work with, at least some aspect of our crazy lives will be settled. And I cannot wait. I cannot wait to start law school. I cannot wait to marry M. And I cannot wait until all these custody issues are ironed out and V is no longer torn between the people she loves. We’ll be going to court in the coming weeks to try and settle this. I know it will be a long battle, but today reminded me where we need to put our hope. I know that in the spaces between that are filled with only worry and fear and doubt - when God seems silent – He has not turned away. He is working.

And I’ve no doubt that His work in this situation has only just begun.


Mike said...

Wow...I sure hope things work out with the custody sad that some parents act like this.


Congrats on being accepted to law school!!

Good luck guys!

Corry said...

Congrats, Nan! God keeps His promises:-)

May He bless with the custody hearings as well.

God's Grace. said...

God can break down any barriers. Just pray to him through Jesus and let his Holy Spirit guide and direct you. "I will never leave you nor forsake you." Hebrews 13:5

green said...

Congrats on your acceptance to law school!

That's a rough situation that you, M and V are going through with the ex. My thoughts and prayers go out to all of you.

It will be a hard fought battle, but you must keep the faith that God will work out His plan for you all in His time and that He may allow a few trials to come into the mix - but He would never give you a trial you can not handle and these trials will help you strengthen your faith.

God Bless

audrey` said...

Congratulations Nan!

We're rejoicing with you :)
Nan is attending law school ;)

Damian said...

The belief that God is not with us during the bad times is pressed on us by the devil but infact God is always carrying us through the toughest times. Matthew 6:26
"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" God always cares and He knows our pain and what makes us happy and He will take care of you both. God bless you and M and put your faith and trust in God always.

crossblade said...

hello Nunzia,
I'm soo happy for you!!!!
God really is awesome...
there is nothing he cant do...
it makes me soo happy to read this
blessing dear friend!!!
Congratulations again!!!!

Pia said...

so true. God is at work. thank you for reminding me this. God is in control and He knows what's best. and i will trust Him.

i hope everything goes well with you. God bless as always. =)

carolyn said...

The good, the bad, and the ugly all mixed in together. Do you think that is just life?

Props on getting into Law School! I enjoyed celebrating with you today. Let's pray for another celebration after April 7.


Winona said...

Oh sweetheart, we sure could use a veryexceptional lawyer in the family.
Congratulations!!!!! Exciting.

PJ said...

I am so happy for you. You deserve it.

Uncle Anthony said...

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat......i'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

remember all my lawyer fees will be FREE.LOL

Kristi said...

Congratulations, Nan! It's great to be reminded that even though we are doubting and struggling, God is still at work to bring things together for good.

I'll be praying for the situation with the ex and V.

Ma said...

I am so proud of you. Im sure you will make the right decision and take advantage of this great opportunity.God Bless You MA

M said...

CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!! baby. You're going to make the best lawyer ever. I know you're still beaming. I love you. You deserve it. mwa! :)

Cynthia said...

Hey Nan, Congrad!! im Proud of you!! MWAAA love you, gimme a call tomorrow! MWA

martie said...

Congratulations on your acceptance to law school, Nan!

On the other front(V & M), keep the faith. I will continue to keep all of you in my prayers and I know that He will see you through the tough times! God Bless! xoxox

Jayne said...

Law school!! Very cool!!


Keeping you in my prayers.

Nightcrawler said...

That is wonderful news Nunzia! I hope everything works out for M. Ex's can be so impossible to get along with sometimes.

~Deb said...

Good luck with law school for one! And I do believe that if God wants two people to be together; and that's His will for your life---then it's meant to be.

Hope you're doing well.

Genna said...

Congrats on the news!! This is an amazing illustration that even though things might seem dark, there is a bigger plan that we are not aware of. Keep your faith and your eyes on Him and you will be guuided down the right path.

God is awesome!

Laura said...

Congratulations for getting into law school, that is so great! I hope everything else can get settled soon, good luck!! I miss you!!

audrey` said...

Just drop by to let you know that I'm thinking of you =P